I made a list of people who have hurt me in some significant way. Here are some facts about that list.
There are 31 people on the list.
26 of the people on the list are men.
11 of the men have first names that begin with the letter J.
7 of the men have last names that begin with the letter W.
1 last name is unknown to me.
6 people share a name with someone else on the list.
2 more share the same name with different spellings.
There are 9 people whose middle names I know.
4 are people that I met in the last 5 years.
8 have done things that hurt me in the last 3 years.
I estimate that 1/2 of the people on the list are taller than me.
Around 18 are older (or probably older) than me.
4 have served in some branch of the military.
4 have talked to me about being suicidal.
I have seen 1 of the people on the list in the hospital.
Everyone on the list is alive.
2 are invited to my wedding.
3 were once on the guest list but were removed.
3 are probably reading this.
There are 8 people on the list I would describe as gross.
There is only 1 person on the list I would describe as ugly.
There is only 1 person on the list who I think probably does not have any redeemable qualities.
To my knowledge only 1 person on the list actually fucks horses.
11 lied about things I can remember off the top of my head.
7 have told me they love me.
1 person on the list probably does not know that he hurt me at all.
2 still owe me a breakup phone call.
9 know that I am a survivor.
1 relationship has been repaired.
I would say that I am completely over 20 of these people and/or whatever happened between us.
The other 11 still hurt sometimes.
It's hard to stay mad at number 15 because I feel sorry for him.
It's hard to stay mad at 9 for the same reason.
I am still the most utterly confused by 21.
8 seems completely unnecessary.
7 hurts the worst.
5 and I did the most damage to each other.
6 did not mean to hurt me.
